Be

You know those days where you think, "Wow I wish I was doing more with my life right now"? I think everyone has those days...but I think those moments are more common.

I am here at George Fox University...preparing to God what wants me to do. My desire is to counsel missionary kids and I pray that God will use me to do that one day. But right now, God is preparing me. God has me at Fox, today, on February 19th, 2010 because there is something He wants me to do right here and right now.

I have a hard time. Today I was looking at a friend's pictures who just returned from Haiti. Heartbreaking and inspiring. Devastating and divine. I looked at Elliot's pictures and thought, "I want to be there. I want to DO something."

I am horrible at waiting...horrible at being patient. Ask my roommates, oldest friends, and family and they will tell you: Jana is not a patient person. I am in a season of waiting...a time where God wants me to be still and wait for HIM to move. God is saying, "Jana...I know you want to get out there and conquer the world. I know you want to impact souls for Christ. But right now...you HAVE to embrace where I have you. Because yeah other things will happen in your life that will be AMAZING...

But don't forget that holy moments are around you every day."

So...I am going to do my best to embrace each and every moment. I want my prayer to be this: "God, what can I learn, hear, see, feel in this holy moment?"

Because if you think about it, every moment we have is holy. Every breath we take is a miraculously beautiful moment. Every time we smile about a memory, laugh because the wind is playing with our clothes, smile because our hearts are bursting with joy-every time we realize that we are alive-we are embracing a holy moment.

God, give me ears to hear, a heart to love, and eyes to see far beyond the visible.