Pain

Westley once said, "Life is pain"

And somedays, I think its true

But Westley did not

As I do believe

Say that pain has a purpose too.

Pain is annoying and tiring too

Its vengeance is swift and 

Precise.  But my Savior knows

That pain is a price

That is worthy to pay a price.

Pain will soon fade and grace

Will endure.  So one thing i choose

To believe, is my life is a 

Story of reason and grace

That explains why His grace is

Amazing.

Life is full of pain, sorrow, and ups and downs.  There is no use denying it--and there's often nothing we can do about it.  Unfortunately, people use the excuse of pain in their lives to justify all sorts of stupid and inconsiderate crimes and actions.

I have suffered from chronic tension and migraines for almost ten years.  Having just completed a round of CT scan, MRI, and lumbar puncture (LP) procedures, I am quite frankly fed up with my headaches.  My brain has taken to not consulting me on important issues.  

I am not a fan.

However, I continue to live my life.  Yes, sometimes, I do not get as much done as I would like because I am unable to look at a computer screen without my eyes feeling like they will explode in my head.  But I know that for whatever reason, the God I believe in is allowing me to experience this pain.

Now, for those of you who don't believe in God, this concept is a little bit perplexing.  I believe in the God of the Bible and most people's arguments again Yahweh is this: "How can a good God allow bad things to happen?"

Well, I have had my times of yelling, screaming, crying, and kicking God (metaphorically of course...although my foot sometimes makes contact with couches and bathtubs.).  And I have come to realize this truth:

being angry does not change your situation.  It merely affects how you look at your problems.

Now, imagine your favorite action movie without the pain.  First of all, all the action wouldn't really be so exciting because it hurts when people get punched in the face, shot at, or exploded.  Second, it would be really boring to watch.  Yes, being hurt tends to be a bad thing but one must admit that it makes for a very entertaining show.

And lastly, you know your favorite is good and realistic because it resonates in your soul.  Perhaps you don't relate to exactly what the protagonist or antagonist experiences.  But the human experience is diverse as the number of sand specks on a beach.

I don't think it is fair to ask about an "unfair" God.  I believe in a broken system--sometime in the past, our world was perfect.  Everything worked the way it was supposed to.  And then, man and woman each decided they wanted to be selfish.  They said, "Me.....me.....ME!!!!"

Now, we live in a world full of physical, mental, and emotional pain.  Anyone who has a relative who suffers from a disease, chronic illness, or mental health disorders should agree with me on this statement.

Life is shitty sometimes.

But the thing to remember isn't the shit.  The thing to remember is that I have a choice.  I can wallow in my shithole and complain and complain and whine, whine, whine.  Or, I can pick up a shovel, start digging around me, and try to get myself out of this mess called life.

Chances are I was the one who ended myself up in the pile of crap anyway.

Choice, in my opinion, is the last incorruptible power in the universe.  Yes, people do corrupt the power of choice.  However, you always have the ability to choose.